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all the colors mix to grey and it breaks her heart
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[Monday
December 29th, 2008 at 3:41pm] |
Oh, hey! It's me! Remember? You may not, because it's been so long.
I have completely neglected this journal, but with good reason.
I've moved!
I have a new blog, that I completely forgot to write about here, but if you're interested in reading it please leave me a comment with your email address and I will email you the link! I'm way more anonymous on it than I was on here, but it's definitely an interesting read as MANY things in my life have changed.
Hope to see you all there!
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[Monday
March 3rd, 2008 at 8:55pm] |
ugh this week couldn't get any worse
i have 5 midterms
3 in one day
i've been fighting with max all weekend and all week
im sick and i skipped interning today bc i felt like crap
i wish it was spring break, even though thats not going to be any fun either
i have no motivation to study or do anything school related
i'm not even tired bc i slept literally all day so I don't even know what to do with myself
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[Monday
February 18th, 2008 at 3:21pm] |
RIP AUNT SANDY 2-18-07
i can't believe its been a whole year since you've been gone...it still doesn't feel real :(
"God saw you were getting tired and a cure was not meant to be.
so he put his arms around and whispered, come with me
With tearful eyes we watched you as we saw you pass away
although we loved you deeply, we could not make you stay
Your golden heart stopped beating, hard-working hands at rest.
God broke our hearts to prove to us, he only takes the best."
miss you everyday
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[Wednesday
February 13th, 2008 at 8:50pm] |
sooo i have not written in awhile bc my life is super busy but also super exciting
i got an internship at metro, which is like my favorite newspaper
today i actually had an article published! Check it out: http://www.readmetro.com/show/en/Philadelphia/20080213/2/2/
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[Thursday
January 24th, 2008 at 10:53pm] |
so today was seriously intense.
my life is actually seriously intense
i don't think i have ever been busier
today i had 5 classes and was on campus from 8 am til 9 pm
ridiculous
i had one break
and a meeting
if that counts as another break
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[Tuesday
January 22nd, 2008 at 12:31am] |
ugh school starts tomorrow...
its weird
im kind of looking forward to it
but also not
because i know starting tomorrow, there goes my free time and my sleep
but maybe it will turn out better than i think
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[Monday
January 21st, 2008 at 2:11am] |
ugh....max leaves tomorrow...i feel like our relationship has way too many goodbyes
its really depressing
and i mean i know I am going to go visit him this weekend, but still..i hate being apart
and i hate that i am going back to school on tuesday even though I know i want to be back in some sort of routine but i know i will miss being bored and having all the time in the world to complain about how bored i am.
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[Thursday
January 17th, 2008 at 8:33pm] |
so im bored.
waiting for max to get home from dc
so happy he is coming back
i was only away from him for like 4 days and i miss him terribly
i'm ready for school to start
a lot of exciting things happening this semester
i have an interview for an internship at Metro on sunday
nervous...
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[Tuesday
January 15th, 2008 at 10:17pm] |
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ah so i havn't written in awhile but its because I was in DC for a week but im back now so hopefully a real entry will be coming soon!
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[Saturday
January 5th, 2008 at 2:05am] |
Not so much to update on...Just hanging around with Max being happy baking cookies, cooking each other dinner, playing scrabble, watching america's next top model since it's apparantly having a huge marathon.
I am going to DC on Sunday. Not very excited. I wish Max and I could just hang out here.
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[Thursday
January 3rd, 2008 at 1:53am] |
I havn't written in a few days. I have been pretty busy. This is going to be a short post with more to come later...New Years Eve was fun...It wasn't exciting or anything, but it was nice to spend it with Max and to meet his family. We slept over there that night and I was surprised that they let Max and I sleep together. We stayed there pretty much all of New Years Day and came home around 9 last night. I have just been enjoying spending time with Max while I can.
More to come.
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[Monday
December 31st, 2007 at 12:27pm] |
Here are my 2008 New Years Resolutions:
-Lose weight
-Have more sex
-Get a 4.0
-Become more organized
-Make more friends
-Go out at Temple more
-Write in my journal everyday
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[Monday
December 31st, 2007 at 2:12am] |
So the other night, I pretty much cleaned my room all night long. I started at about 8 and finished at 1. It was sucky and boring, but the room looks great and cleaning seriously clears my head and destresses me. I only need to clean out my desk drawers which I think I will do the week between when Max starts school and when I start school because I wont be with him.
I woke up yesterday at 1 and pretty much laid around all day until it was time to get ready for my mom's party. She has a party every year for all her nurse friends...It's really cute. We drank a lot and played this fun game that really only was fun because of the alcohol. Then Max's plane finally landed and he came over around midnight. I was so happy to see him! He slept over because we were waking up early today.
Today we had the Lawlor family Christmas party. I decided Max could come and meet my entire crazy family...I mean....It turned out okay. I guess. Half of my family lives in the middle of nowhere and are hicks and the rest are pretty normal. We came home around 8 and watched The Amazing Race and The Girls Next Door and just hung around here.
Tomorrow is New Years Eve...OY. I do not like this holiday. I know everyone loves it and thinks of it as a new beginning and a time to party, but I really think it's depressing. It seems that once a year starts to get good, a new one starts. And I mean, the weeks and even months following Christmas are the most depressing. I love fall. I think that November and December are awesome months..I seriously hate January-April so going into this period of time is not making me look forward to 2008. However: I have decided to make this a New Years themed entry and do a little reflection on each month of 07 because all in all i would say it was a pretty good year.
January: January is the month where I randomly decided I hated Hofstra and was depressed at the thought of ever going back, so I decided to email Temple and ask if they had any room for me. No one ever believed that it would work and that anyone would take me seriously, but it did. Everything happened so fast though. I enrolled at Temple. left Hofstra, moved out and started anew. However, I do sort of regret this decision. It was an extremely rash decision, but everything happens for a reason and I am much happier now. Also, in January I stayed with Max in DC for 5 days which was pretty much the first time my mom let me stay there with him for an extended period of time. It was amazing and we went to a lot of museums and went ice skating. I moved into Temple on January 14th...a bad decision off the bat. I ended up living in the dirtiest, smallest dorm, with a crazy roomate who ended up stealing my credit cards and eventually moving out because she was a klepto. I found during this month and into February that I really didn't enjoy living there and was much happier living at home since I was close enough to commute. I also applied and got hired at American Eagle in January: another mistake. I found out that working retail was definitely not my forte. I decided to rush a sorority in January which was something I didn't really ever think I would do. I ended up loving it but didn't get a bid. I was definitely crushed and discouraged, and this made me dislike Temple even more. January into February was probably one of my lowest points of the year, if not of my life.
February: February began and I was still hating Temple and hating everything except my family and Max pretty much. February 9th was our 2 year anniversary, and we spent it in the mountains skiing with SAR. It was a good weekend and seeing Max during the weekends became the highlight of my social life. The following week, my parents went away to Aruba. Valentines Day came and went and Max sent me flowers. Then on Sunday, the worst thing that could possibly happen, happened. My parents kept me in the dark about this subject but my Aunt Sandy was diagnosed with lung cancer a week before they left from vacation. No one really told me, except that she wasn't doing too well. However, a few days later she was released from the hospital and we were told she was much better. Then on Sunday February 18 while my parents were away I got a phone call that my Aunt had died. The responsibility to tell my parents when they got home that evening from their trip fell onto me, and I nervously sat in the arm chair downstairs waiting for them to get home for 4 hours. I told my mom and saw the thing that scared me the most: my mom scared. Seeing a parent weak is one of the worst things. The next week was probably the worst. We spent a lot of time with my cousins (my aunt's kids) and the funeral was on the following Thursday. I tried to be strong but it was hard. I went to class and went through the motions but didn't do so well. The one good thing that came of my Aunt's sudden death was that we became much closer to our cousins, and my 21 year old cousin and I started hanging out all the time. We don't really anymore and this makes me sad. Also in February I took my best friend Sam to a John Mayer concert. We had an awesome time.
March: March brought Max's birthday! He came home for the weekend and we went to dinner in New Hope, and then my spring break began! I tried to hang out with Sam that week but she was being very distant and moody--something that was very strange to me. Max came home the next weekend because his spring break began. On March 9th I held a birthday dinner for myself and some friends. The weird thing was, I didn't have any fun. I felt like I invited all these people, and then I began to wonder why. Half of them weren't even real friends. I felt like there were just a bunch of strangers at the table and I would have rather just had Lara, Pam, and Max there. Sam became even more distant and in March we stopped talking completely. Losing my best friend sucked especially after losing a loved one. I knew that I always had Max, but I needed that best girl friend in my life, and it felt like there was no one to take her place. My birthday weekend was filled with fun and food and Max. Just the way I wanted it to be. Max moved into my tiny dorm for the week and we had fun. I became closer and closer with Pam in these months and we bonded because we both had serious boyfriends but for other reasons as well.
April: Easter, Max, and schoolwork. These are pretty much the only things that occurred in April.
May: May brought the CHS musical which was amazing. I coped with my feelings of wishing I was still in high school, and I am proud to say that I am completely over that now. Finals came and went. I came out of the semester with a 3.73 which I was extremely proud of. Max came home for good for the summer and I was of course ecstatic. My family went down the shore for Memorial Day Weekend and Max came too and it was awesome.
June: I took my lifeguard recertification class and the pool opened again. Same old drama. Never going to change. I learned to not care about being excluded and just kept to myself mostly. June brought hot summer nights, just hanging out with Max.
July: More of the same summer fun. Melissa and I went to see John Mayer. I also got a pretty drastic haircut in July...very short. Harry Potter came out which of course was a highlight of the summer. Max and read the book together in two days.
August: In August, Max came on a cruise with my family. It was INCREDIBLE. I don't even know how to describe how amazing it was. We went to Nassau, St. Thomas, and St. Maartan. August also brought the beginning of school and the end of the pool. For one very stressful week I went to school every morning, then worked at the pool til 8 pm and then hung out with Max til midnight. I was exhausted and thankful when the pool closed. However, it was also time to say goodbye to Max again which always depresses me.
September: I threw myself into school and decided that this semester definitely needed to be different than the previous one. I joined PRSSA which is a Public Relations organization. I love it, and have learned so much. I write for the PRSSA newsletter and we are starting our own PR firm which I am the PR director of. I joined the Temple News and published two articles this semester. I also joined a sorority. I went into recruitment week deadset against AEPhi since I had gotten rejected from them before, but hey, look at me now, I am an AEPhi and proud of it. It's so strange how things work out but it is definitely where I belong. With recruitment, came pledging, a definite stressful time.
October: More school, more pledging. I got my big sister. Got my big brother. Had an awesome Halloween weekend with some awesome girls. I saw Max many weekends and began to enjoy Temple more. I realized that commuting is a much better choice for me even though I complain a lot.
November: Pledging got more stressful and so did school but I somehow made it through. I was finally initiated and everything fell into place and I decided it was completely worth it.
December: FINALS. I studied and studied, and looked forward to seeing Max. I ended up with a 3.9 this semester and went to DC for a week while Max finished school. Came home and celebrated Christmas! This brings me to the new year...Lets hope for a good one!
If you made it through this entire post congratulations!
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[Friday
December 28th, 2007 at 2:16pm] |
I havn't written in a few days...I am not off to a good start! However, there is an important reason I havn't written. Lara, my roomate from Hofstra came to visit me for the past few days. She came on the morning of the 26th and just left a few minutes ago. It was a good time, but I find that I get sick of people really quickly and just like to be alone sometimes.
On Wednesday morning, I worked from 10:00-12:00. It was super easy, I pretty much just read my boo and did a crossword puzzle and then left. Lara came over and we just hung out during the day. Later that night, her and my family went to the movies. Lara and I were supposed to see Enchanted, and my Mom, Dad, and brother were supposed to see National Treasure, but NT was sold out, so they saw The Kite Runner. Enchanted is an amazing movie. I know it looks really corny and cheesy, but it really isn't. It has a really good message, and really awesome animation. I love how the movie switches from real life to animation. I think its just a really clever idea and works really well with the movie. Plus Patrick Dempsey is so hot, and Amy Adams is an awesome actress, so I absolutely loved it. I actually already saw the movie in November with Max (he obviously didn't like it) but I definitely was up for seeing it again.
After the movie, we went out to dinner at this place called Mikes Bar and Grille. I had never been there before, but it was actually really good. We came home and played Rock Band (which is my new obsession) and then went to bed.
I had work again on Thursday and then Lara, my Mom and I went to Artware (a jewelry store) to get more charms for my Pandora bracelet. I got a music note and a giraffe (for AEPHi..the giraffe is our mascot). Then Lara and I went to Cosi..she has never been there...and we got smores..which is always amazing. Afterwards, I took a nap and then later that night, Lara, Melissa, and I went to Chickie and Petes.
I had work this morning and then Lara just left. Now don't get me wrong...I absolutely love Lara but there are just some things that bother me about her that I can't get over. I know it isn't really her fault, it just has to do with the way she was raised and her family situation but she is just so naive to the world and being independent. Now I don't consider myself a very independent person..I mean..I couldn't even stay at a college 2 hours away from my house, and then when I was finally close to home, I couldn't even live there, but I know what it's like to pay for my own things and take care of myself. I was shocked to find out yesterday that Lara's parents give her a credit card and whenever she purchases food whether it be at a grocery store or a restaurant, they reimburse her. Last night at Chickies we paid in cash, and she wrote down the amount she paid in her planner so that her Mom can give her the money back. This absolutely shocks me. I mean, the girl is almost 20 years old and her parents pay for her food? I understand if you live at home, and you eat your parents food, but I could never justify going out to eat with my friends and having my parents REIMBURSE me. Thats just ridiculous. Also, I asked her if she is paying for any of her college education and she said no and acted like it was ridiculous that I was going to be paying my parents back for school. I was shocked, because college is a privelege, not a right. She just seemed to feel so entitled to everything. I mean, maybe its just because she is an only child and her parents can afford to pay for everything she does, but I have learned the importance of having a job and saving money, and only spending it on things that are truly important to me. Talking to Lara about all these things actually made me really thankful for the way my parents raised me because I am going to be so much more prepared for the real world. I mean, Lara is concerned because she knows at some time in her life her parents are going to stop putting gas in her car, and stop paying for everything she does. Oy vay.
Anyway, I am happy to be back on my own and being able to do whatever I want in my house, and not having to worry about entertaining anyone but myself.
In a little bit, I am going to Starbucks with Becky. I am really excited because I havn't seen her in so long and we have a lot to talk about. Plus, I want to talk to her about writing because I have all these ideas and I really just don't know how to put them in action.
Max comes home tomorrow night. I am really excited. I miss him so much, but it was sort of nice to have a tiny break from him because we were together pretty much 24/7 for a week and a half and sometimes I just want time for myself. My Mom is having a party tomorrow night. I'll write more about that later.
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[Wednesday
December 26th, 2007 at 1:25am] |
It was really cute when i wrote in this journal everyday. I love it because on nights tonight, when i'm staying up late for absolutely no reason I like to reflect on my life and reading my journals make me happy. There is absolutely no entries from last year because I was so miserable but I am really going to try to change this starting now and through the new year because so many important things happen that I want to remember. I contemplated writing in a real paper journal but I realized I am really lazy and actually writing with a pen takes too much effort. Sad? I know. Oh well.
I am mainly writing in this journal for me, but I love when people read and comment and I love to read all of your journals too. Please let me know if you read my journal because it makes me happy!
So Winter Break has begun and it has been awesome so far. Life is so good right now. So much better than this time last year. I finished finals and went straight to DC to hang out with my boyfriend for the week while he finished school. It was fun, but also boring. We pretty much slept a lot. We did do some fun things though such as double dates to Buca, going to museums, walking around the monuments, seeing the national tree, and baking Christmas cookies.
I totally got Max in the Christmas spirit this season. We must have baked cookies at least 4 times. We went to Longwood Gardens to see all the lights and we watched Elf and Christmas with the Cranks, and went to the National Tree. I got him Flyers tickets for his gift and now have a newfound obsession with hockey. Max gave me a Tiffany ring which I am in love with.
We came home from DC on Friday morning and went to Tiffanys that afternoon. Later that night we went to Carrabas which is my absolute favorite restaurant. Saturday I went shopping and then baked cookies and went to the Flyers game. Sunday was Max's last day at home because he went to Utah to go skiing over the holidays. We saw National Treasure 2 which I absolutely loved.
Christmas Eve went along as usual. Traditions never change in the Lawlor home. Woke up late, cleaned my room, then opened gifts from the siblings--clothes of course. Then we had an amazing dinner of prime rib and filet mignon and went to church. When we came home we went to go visit my cousins and then came home and went to sleep.
Christmas morning and day was just amazing. I woke up around 9 am and saw my pile of gifts. I realized this Christmas how lucky my family is. It's sort of sad how much we have and how much my parents give us. Here is a list of things i got:
Pink Dell Laptop
The Nanny Diaries
The Hills Season 2
Books
US Weekly Subscription
Slippers
Aephi Clothes and Tote Bag
Clothes from Delias, AE, Aero, H and M
Scarf
Le Sportsac Bag
Pandora Bracelet and Charms
Sheets
Undies
Perfume from AE
Makeup
Itunes Gift Card
Vera Bradley ID Case
Rockband (shared with the siblings)
I made out really well this year as always! I am so thankful!
After opening gifts, family came over and we had brunch and it was amazing as usual. I played Rockband also (such an amazing game). Then I hung around all day while my dad talked to Dell people because they couldn't get my computer to work which was pretty annoying, but it works now, so its okay.
Then we got ready for dinner and went over to family's house. It was awesome. Dinner was great and then we sat around and chatted and then played some fun games. We played give and take which is a silly game where you put dollar store items and cheap things in the middle of a circle and everyone gets 5 numbers. When your number is called you get to choose a gift or take one from someone else and when all 5 of your numbers have been called you get to keep the gifts you have remaining in front of you. Its silly, but really fun and intense. Then I came home and decided to write in my journal. Hopefully this will become a trend!
Merry Christmas everyone!
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[Sunday
December 2nd, 2007 at 3:33pm] |
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sooooo happy to be in alpha epsilon phi <3 my letters mean so much to me :)
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[Friday
November 30th, 2007 at 4:36pm] |
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eeeeeks im so nervous!!!
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[Sunday
November 25th, 2007 at 6:29pm] |
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:(
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[Saturday
June 30th, 2007 at 2:15am] |
sooo i pretty much love philly
what a great city...seriously...the downtown area is just amazing
i also love max :)
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[Wednesday
June 27th, 2007 at 12:29pm] |
havn't written because conklin has stolen my life.
hopefully be back soon.
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